Mareyuez

What have you been working on?

I have been working on self-love. It’s hard to love myself when I’ve always felt like the outcast in the family. Feeling like a black sheep lead to me also feeling alone. That being different from them is wrong. Along with trying to break the generational traumas, it’s been difficult to be seen as different in their eyes. Almost to where I lost myself and made sacrifices to please.

As far as I can tell, it seems returning to the creative side of me has helped. But, it has been so long that I feel that I’m not good enough.

Sometimes there are feelings of guilt for being selfish for working on myself. Here’s hoping I am able to find my way back to being okay to be me again. To loving me.

How long will this feeling last? Maybe forever? Maybe not?

In the meantime, I will keep writing in my journals.