I would have to say being able to remain in conversation with people. I tend to be an awful conversationalist. Especially if it’s on a topic that’s not of my interest. I would either talk too much and possibly too fast or not enough. Don’t get me started on my mumbling and stuttering. Like speaking should be easy and simple as walking? Maybe that wasn’t a good comparison there…?
I have so much on my mind and it’s difficult for my mouth to catch up to my inner thoughts. I have to take numerous pauses. It’s like I know what to say but the words can’t form the way I’m thinking them.
Sometimes it feels exhausting being me. My social battery gets drained quickly. It’s hard because I want to converse and be in social gatherings. Every time I try, it feels like the world is against me. Maybe I’m just too hard on myself.
Here’s hoping with time, I learn to be okay with this.
Mareyuez 
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